My hole
Quick
Find my hole
I need to hide
I need to disappear
All will be good
I just need to be not here

Where were my lessons learned
I watch tears falling from her eyes
While I know confusion
Where I did go wrong
But I don’t think I did
What did I say wrong
But I don’t think I did
Her tears are falling
Again
And I think they’re mine
From lives battled long ago

The words were quiet
The sickness was quelled
The peace was real
As my world falls apart

Missing were the rambles
Confusions that kept me straight
The fears of talking
Words leading me astray

My control was mighty
My heart locked tight
Deflecting the world
At every blow

Now my friend

I blow the dust
Off my favorite keyboard
So I can pound away
The emotions inside
Because again
Words are failing me
My mouth just brings pain
I can’t talk
I can’t say
Silence
My lovely silence
Gets so quickly missed
At the memories of the pain
My mouth invariably brings

I don’t understand
Where words go wrong
I don’t understand
How talking only hurts

Shhhh,
I come back to you
My quiet friend
The one whom hears
I come back to you
With my apologies
For my silence too long
For my lazy fingers too weak
I apologize for failing to acknowledge
You are my only doctor
My only medicine
My only sickness
Welcome me home
I promise to hurt again
I promise to learn to talk again