The dice show up
In curly hair
And a skateboard

I miss
I must confess
A little bit of crazy
A slight lack of sanity
A warmth
Between my arms
And a hint of peace

The sevens
The elevens
The obvious pay-offs
The wins of bored

Gimme the hard points
Gimme the thrill of the fives
Gimme the excitement of he eights
Gimme the snake eyes
Gimme the being alive
From the living of losing
With a roll and some dots

Maybe I’ll be lucky
Maybe dice won’t be offered
Maybe there isn’t a roll
For me to bet on
Maybe a new bad idea
Won’t be at my door
Won’t make it to my bed
Maybe dreams won’t die

Maybe

I can do it
I can be brave
I see the face in my mind
The sleep refused to come
Those words
6 foot, blue eyes
Can’t be a coincidence
Gotta be for me
Don’t be a fool
Don’t let an experience
Disappear in a blinding haze
Fueled with self-doubt
And self-worthlessness
How clear can it be
She wants to be in my arms
But my blindness
My comforting blindness
My blindness wants my eyes shut
The safety of being home alone
The denial
That I could be worthy
That I could be seen
As something more
Then a walled-off wounded animal
Terrified of any humanity
Existing within myself
Be brave
Be an actor
Imagine the bravado within
Imagine I’m not afraid
She is talking more then words
That I happened to be in earshot of
Brave
Bravado
Just a few words
One mark of punctuation
One question
That can at least quiet
My internal turmoil
Of be brave
Of what if
Don’t be a fool
Take her hand
Hold her heart
And maybe
Just maybe
There will be a nipple
Waiting for the most tender
Of my lips’ offerings

Words words
Gimme the words
I wanna know what you have to say
I wanna know the life you’ve been deprived
I wanna know the dogs before good-bye
I wanna know the health you seek to find

I wanna leave these emotions behind
The human arises
The human lives
The human fucks me up
The human fucks me over

But back to her
Back to my desires
Back to wanting more
Back to dreaming dreams
Of touches
Without pain

Come, go
Here, gone
In all this
Is there time for me
Is there time for cardinal sin
Is there time for some deeds
That we can pretend plants the seeds

Can I have that hand
Can I see you off
Can I allow some happiness
On your way out the door
Can I have a moment
To calm the solitude
That eats me inside

I’d like to kiss you
I’d like to say goodbye
I’d like to wish you well
I’d like to see a smile
My heart could believe
When saying goodbye
Yes I would
Yes I would like just moment
With you in my arms